What a lousy way to live.
I’m pretty certain that is not what God wants me to be thinking…after all, do I trust Him or not?
Seriously, do I trust Him?
Because this stress cannot be from Him…and these anxious thoughts and overwhelming fears can’t be from Him.
But how do I stop them? How do I get past the fear…the anxious thoughts…the exhaustion?
I often pray that God will help me focus on Him…keep to the path…not go to the right or the left when I should be heading forward.
Let your eyes look directly forward, and your gaze be straight before you. Ponder the path of your feet; then all your ways will be sure. Do not swerve to the right or to the left; turn your foot away from evil (Prov. 4:25-27).
I think I get hung up on the “ponder the path of your feet” part. I ponder…and ponder…and ponder. Oh my golly, I’m so sick of pondering!
I think about everything and how it is going to impact everything else…how things might turn out…how things might impact or affect each of my children…I wonder about how the decisions of the past will impact the decisions I need to make…I wonder what will become of me and my children…will this decision grow their faith…will bad things happen….will good things happen? Am I ever going to make a decision I’m truly comfortable with?
