Sue Birdseye

Sometimes life comes at ya kinda fast, doesn’t it? I feel like for the last four weeks I’ve done nothing but rush and run and rush some more. I made decisions…took leaps of faith…and God opened doors just when I thought I was going to hit another wall. My journal has been full of questions …

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I was talking with a friend lately about how it feels like for the past five-plus years God has asked me to give up A LOT! Sometimes it feels like all I’m doing is giving up people, things, hopes and dreams… Sometimes it has felt unbearable, and sometimes it has been relatively easy. Sometimes the …

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I shared recently about the big decisions I need to make and how much I was struggling to make them. It has been a season of tremendous confusion for me…no easy answers, no straight, lighted path before me, nothing uncomplicated. I kept asking God to just make things clear to me. I kept telling Him …

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This single parenting thing is so difficult. I get confused by all the different situations, personalities, struggles and issues of my children.  I can’t seem to get my feet under me on any of them! And then there’s me. I think I might actually be more confused by my issues, struggles, emotions and stresses than I am …

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Again I’m faced with big decisions… Again… Do you hear the underlying groan in my writing? I sat with my dear friend and prayer partner recently and said, “I’m tired of trying to discern God’s will.” I felt so ungodly saying that…so grumpy, tired and sinful. I want to be better at it. I feel …

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This single parenting thing is so difficult. I get confused by all the different situations, personalities, struggles, and issues of my children. I can’t seem to get my feet under me on any of them! And then there’s me. I think I might actually be more confused by my issues, struggles, emotions, and stresses than …

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Broken. One of those words that doesn’t bring a lot of joy. Who wants to be broken? Broken things. Broken bones. Broken relationships. Broken vows. Broken homes. Broken hearts. I assume we are all on the same page and don’t want that word to describe much if anything in our lives. In fact, the only …

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Recently I’ve had a few people tell that if I’ve forgiven my ex-husband I should be in a better place. From what I’ve heard I shouldn’t be angry at him again. The only problem with this idea is that I gotta deal with the man and he’s difficult so that’s gonna be real hard. It …

Not Just Another Forgiveness Teaching Read More »

You know that old saying about getting your ducks in a row? My ducks aren’t in a row. In fact, I’m sure my ducks aren’t even in the same pond. I really want them to be—at least in the same pond. Golly, I don’t care about lines. I was never particularly fond of staying in …

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Have you ever gotten a continual message from God over and over and over again, in as many different ways as you can imagine? Lately that has been my experience with the gospel. Every book I pick up, every sermon I hear, every quote I find and every verse I read points me to the …

Is Grace a License to Sin? Read More »

There are things that bring back very vivid memories for me—some painful, some not. This evening I was playing through some praise music I found in my organizing spree, and I began to play “Mighty to Save.” Everyone needs compassion Love that’s never failing Let mercy fall on me Everyone needs forgiveness The kindness of …

Life in the Back Row of Church Read More »

I was talking with a friend lately about how it feels like for the past five-plus years God has asked me to give up a lot. Sometimes it feels like all I’m doing is giving up people, things, hopes and dreams. Sometimes it has felt unbearable, and sometimes it has been relatively easy. Sometimes the …

Is It Time to Give Up? Read More »

There is something profoundly painful about a child saying they want to leave. It cuts to the core. I know that when my children say things like, “I’ll just go live with Dad,” or, “I’ll just go live with [insert name],” or even, “I want a different mommy,” it’s more about being frustrated than actually …

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About three months ago, I began a program to get my teaching license and eventually my master’s in education. At the time, it seemed like a really good thing … even though I don’t have the money to pay for the program, nor is the time to do it clearly evident. In fact, when I …

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I’m trying to get papers filed. Trying being the optimum word. One of my best friends says, “The difference between trying and doing is actually getting something done.” I don’t think I quoted that exactly, but you get the idea. I’ve gotten a lot done, but sometimes I feel like I just shuffle things around. …

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